Friday, November 30, 2012

Mr. Tales-Another day

            Dear Friend,

            I am sorry to hear about the inconsideration from your friend.  I hope him a speedy recovery from his changed demeanor and you a great birthday in which you deserve. 
            Today is one of those days where I’m sure as a fellow INFP seem too common.  Yes, today I feel rather blue and would like to write about it.
            From the time I wake up, to the time till I give in to sleep, I come to same conclusion that life is pointless.  It seems rather redundant; to feed this machine with varied inputs when regardless the output is always fecal matter.  I guess I’m sort of drawn to the tragic melancholy of love and life.   As an idealist, I tend to envision perfection, thus I am entertained with the inevitable disappointment in seemingly every circumstance. 
            This makes it seem even odder that I am so compassionate about world change, striving so hard to make pointlessness more pleasant for everyone.  I admit care so little about myself, and not in a heroic selfless sense.
            I am narcissistically withdrawn from society; I feel that most people have nothing legitimate to offer me.  I am so easily empathetic towards all walks of life, yet deep down I feel that everyone is too imperfect to deserve anything including myself.  Though I still love with all my heart, and would give affection to anyone if only to get a smile in return.
            I sometimes feel my whole purpose is a contradiction within itself, but then I think, that life does matter to some people and I want to make it better for them. 

Sincerely,
Tales

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